Sometimes,no matter how hard you try,you really cannot cry. It is difficult. You lose something that you cannot have again or maybe you can have it back but it is going to destroy you and the people around you. So you just have to hold it back.
I know why I am sad. I broke up but I never really got time to grieve about it. I was supposed to cry, I was supposed to be sad. But instead I was told to be strong.Strong. Yes,strong. Because that's what I am. Strong,independent,autonomous and what not. The girl who could not cry.Even if she could, she should not. this is not what defines her. As she takes out another cigarette to smoke,she thinks what mask should she put on today. What mask would define her today in front of him.A thought ponders. Maybe she should show him her real face today. She should show herself as she is. Unbound and naked. It maybe,hell,it will be difficult for her but one day she has to. But not today. She'll just stand as a silent spectator and witness her own destruction. "I'll be fine",she says. Another drag,another shot and she'll be fine. Maybe one day she'll wake up to herself and settle with one.But for now, she'll be the Insatiable Lady: Lilith aka Lily.
I know why I am sad. I broke up but I never really got time to grieve about it. I was supposed to cry, I was supposed to be sad. But instead I was told to be strong.Strong. Yes,strong. Because that's what I am. Strong,independent,autonomous and what not. The girl who could not cry.Even if she could, she should not. this is not what defines her. As she takes out another cigarette to smoke,she thinks what mask should she put on today. What mask would define her today in front of him.A thought ponders. Maybe she should show him her real face today. She should show herself as she is. Unbound and naked. It maybe,hell,it will be difficult for her but one day she has to. But not today. She'll just stand as a silent spectator and witness her own destruction. "I'll be fine",she says. Another drag,another shot and she'll be fine. Maybe one day she'll wake up to herself and settle with one.But for now, she'll be the Insatiable Lady: Lilith aka Lily.
